A way to honor memories is to try (once again) to become the best that it made us be.
From when we were still starting up until now, when we have just missed our 7th month (again) people have been asking, “Are you still together?”
I have a feeling that somehow they are just waiting for the breakup. Yet even Den told me, “You’re just waiting for me to make a mistake.”
How can I not accept that it’s ok to relax because he won’t do anything that will hurt me?
“That’s the farthest you can go? While I can die for you.”
Why am I still not buying that? I’ve been meaning to write about trust, but I can never pin it down.
First step to my desired changes for 2013, I’ve downloaded WP for android… to stop believing that thinking blog posts over and over will perfect anything… to stop obsessing about the perfect time and a comfortable chair to start writing… to post more raw and less processed thoughts… and to share stuff straight from what i see thru my phone 😀
It’s still a happy new year! Hey artist!
Hope nobody would recognize her.
Haze said that maybe we ought to let go of our “fresh grad” ideals… because in the real world, it really doesn’t work that way.
I still haven’t found where to put politics in my system — or maybe it’s just my obsession to see more balls and backbones.
I told Haze:
One day, when they’re all dead, I won’t tell the young to let go of their “fresh grad” ideals and stupid hope. One day, it will be the norm.
There’s so much hope, isn’t there? For as long as we don’t hang on to the old system. It will fall. And then there is hope.
I won’t tell them that I know better. And when we’re all dead, and I’m dead, they’ll continue to have hope, all the more.
The harder it is to come back.
I thought I’ll be back right after Peace Month. If I would wait for a better time, I might just never write again.
Oooorrr maybe I’m long gone because I don’t want Addie to get sick of my recent musings on having a boyfriend lol
But I’ll be really back soon (with substance). I just need something to start with.
Hey Artist, I miss you.